Thoughts towards end of the year #1

I’ve been chilling a lot these past couple of days. I’m leaving tomorrow for home in the afternoon. I actually enjoy this whole staying after everyone’s left thing a good amount. Well, at least staying until the end. It really allowed me some time to wind down and even see people. I kind of wish I did this every semester and just relaxed instead of rushing out of Cornell. I usually don’t even enjoy being at home that much anyways so I don’t know why I didn’t think of this earlier haha. Actually, it might be because my family was always in a rush to have me back. I don’t mind, they feed me well haha. Sadly I’ve realized the joy of staying late a bit too late haha. I’m already a senior. This is crazy. I honestly can’t believe it. I don’t want to even check my grades or maybe I’m afraid to because it’s like a sign that I’m really moving on. I can’t believe I’m a senior either. It really doesn’t feel like it. I still feel young, inexperienced, and just like a kid. I don’t know if I can hold a real job or whether I even want to. Actually, I think I can hold a real job, the real question is whether I want to. Had a chat with some friends today who mentioned how all the alums she knew were not enjoying the real world work life.

College is honestly like utopia. Sure studying all the time, doing psets, and taking tests and writing papers are not fun, but having random little markers in our time here does make things a bit more interested. If we were to just work and have no roadmarks, boy it would suck. It would suck really bad too. Days and weeks would pass by and we wouldn’t be able to realize how fast the time went by or what we did. That’s why I’m resolving my senior year to be flipping amazing. I’m going to take only 12 credits and do what I like to do and have the time to be able to catch up and chill with my friends. I want to remember Cornell as the place I made lifetime friends, not the place where I spent sleepless hours holed up in the stupid library. Uris library is a great place to study and do work though, I’ll say that.

Uris library. funny story. I’ve told some ppl this. So freshman year, every time I would go home, my parents or grandparents would ask me if I got a girlfriend yet. After the first or second time I got tired and started with the jokes. I started saying yes. Uris library is her name. She’s beautiful. She’s consistent. She’s there when I need her. She’s there with me through the tough times and through the long nights and gets me through Cornell. She’s not really going to leave me. Who could ask for a better girlfriend? lol, after a couple of those responses, the questions stopped. HAHA. But to be honest, I did spend a good amount of hours at Uris library. It really is my choice of place to study though.

This past Saturday I got to go to stewart park with some of the Cru seniors and other friends included. The weather was great and the company greater. I really enjoyed the time of fellowship with all of them. We just hung out and chatted and played and ate. We talked about life and had a good time together. I honestly wish I had a lot more of those moments in my time here at Cornell. Well, but then again, good weather like that was only really available close to the summer haha. I honestly do believe that if the weather here at Cornell was nicer, people would be so much more happier. We would care a bit less about our work, we would go out on the quads and play more and smile a lot more too. People might actually even be able to have fun by playing outside instead of resorting to drinking first to have fun. More on this later. Back to Stewart park with Seniors. It was awesome. Definitely wish I had more of those moments. I’m going to have to work on creating them! I’m going to miss dem cool seniors!

Today woke up later in the morning. Went to lunch with Jamie and her sister in the commons. Ate a great burger at the Ale House. I liked their burgers, their service, not so much haha. If Gordon Ramsey were there rating it, he would give them a thumbs down for service. haha. I don’t even want to imagine what he would say in person. We then took a walk around and then went to Waffle Frolick! Jamie never went before and of course her sister didn’t either, so it was cool. Ate an epic ice cream sandwich waffle between three people. It was nice to just walk around and chat with them. Seriously going to miss Jamie. She’s an epic secretary and even more epic sister in Christ. I’ve learned many things from her during my time here. She’s a very wise cookie.

Came back, chilled and then went to get dinner with the Biebster. Going to miss that dude. Great brother. Loved leading CG with him. I’m positive he’ll be fine leading his own CG next year. I hope to still see a good amount of him though. Not done with that dude just yet.

Kind of glad to leave tomorrow. I’ve had a good amount of things on my mind and heart that I haven’t been able to deal with here properly. I really think I need to get off of this campus to really start with that one.

Okay, I’ma top it off there. I don’t think your attention span is even going to reach down here unless you skimmed.

Going home tomorrow. Peace Ithaca, Hello NYC!

Poonie out.