Love and encouragement much needed

Dang, i feel like this winter break was so full of different things and experiences haha. First of all was coming back and thinking about all those questions. Questions basically doubting my faith, everything from God, Jesus, the reliability of it all, and my own mental state. From that mindset I went to Boston Winter Conference. Then I came back and spent my time thinking more about this and devouring the book The Reason for God by Tim Keller. It didn’t answer all my questions nor were all the stuff very satisfactory, but it did give me some comfort knowing that this faith of ours isn’t some thing that we blindly believe in. There’s tons of evidence and logical reason for what we believe in. If you’d like to find out more, please feel free to ask me and i’ll spend some time looking into it, or you can check out some websites like reasonablefaith.org, which is a great resource.

Then I went to this conference called Ignite Ivy, which was an invite only conference bringing together people from all the Ivy Leagues and MIT who were on fire for revival on their campuses. I must say that I was not spiritually ready going into this conference. I was still thinking things out regarding my relationship with God and then here I am, plunging into a conference with people who are on fire for Christ. I must admit i was a bit uneasy during this thing. God did a lot of amazing things at this conference, which deserves a whole nother post alone. It brought to my mind a lot of things and will be working on this semester.

Another thing is that I honestly don’t know how to spend my time well during break. My grandparents always want me to spend time at home and I always want to go out to see friends and stuff. I want to do this and my family wants to do that. It’s pretty hard sometimes to balance everything but I guess i’m definitely working on how to honor my parents cuz I don’t know about you but I’m banking on God’s promise for a longer life haha.

I’m also praying about what living a life as a good steward would look like in college. I don’t think i’ve been a good steward of what God’s given to me. I have great parents who love me, my family’s not suffering financially, I go to a superb university with so many opportunities, I can actually pay for it, and I’m not doing good and multiplying what I’ve been given. It’s really been something that’s always been on my heart. I’ve made excuses like, oh i spend all my time doing stuff that’s related to my fellowship, it’s all for the glory of God. But I’m not glorifying God in my studies, my grades, or even my actions in class (cutting or sleeping in them). I woke up from my own snoring a couple of times, that was bad. haha. I suck really badly at time management and I’m not doing anything to help it. I need to man up and take a step up.

If you see me slacking off on campus, tell me, and tell me to man up please, I would appreciate some hard lovin and encouragement.

But through it all, with my studies, with my Christian activities, extracurriculars, and everything else, I pray that I’ll be able to glorify God with all of my life.